dear you,(my love letter to life&bs)

why?! when?! what did i do to deserve this shit? idk what i ever did to you for you to hit me this hard. ive never even met you but you know me very well now, if i could snap and make you disappear, i would but i cant. i wish a WISH was all i needed to make you go away because you aint doing shit but hurting me daily. why were you even born? who thought and created you? are you the seed of lucifer or what? i swear you are . all you wanna do is kill my joy , make my nights sleepless and make me hate people. im not even the type to hate anything but i swear you fill me with so much disgust. i wish you would go away , go tf away .. i pray on it and you're still here. i get on my knees and pray you off and you're still here. what do i have to do? oh yea, theres nothing i can do, all you're gonna do is come right back when im weak. you feed off my weakness and for that, i PROMISE ill stay strong until my last breath. you will not defeat me , ive been thru too much w.your friends, your homies and even your mother, none of them won and neither will you. you will slowly fade away , away outta my mind , & the day that i NEVER think of you, will be the greatest day of my life!

FUCK YOU ,
Kiera T.

it never fails

It never fails. One worthless ass conversation leads to bullshit after bullshit! im sooo tired of the bullshit . theres nothing that id love more than to RID myself of EVERY bullshit ass situation ive put myself in with worthless ass people. i've come to the conclusion that you can NOT be friends with exs. especially those who know eachother. no matter how much i love one, ive fucked w.the other one first so i guess it means nothing. it was doomed from the start but we started it anyway, didnt know love was gonna come of it but hey it did. whoever woulda thought 5 years later, the dick measuring contest continues. if i had a choice to be with either of the two, it'd be he whom is tatted, lets get that straight off the back. i really dont even see why it matters who i talk to , im not w.either but i do understand one has the right to feel a certain way bc we still talk. i yi yi ! i dont know what to think other than angry thoughts. i hate when im blamed for a nigga messiness , especially when i really had NO part in it ...but i guess thats life right? im gonna rid myself of the bullshit for good, watch me go mia on muthafuckas ....

unstabled.

i dont know exactly whats going on.. im confused dude. im happy then im sad and you are to blame. got ppl thinking im hallucinating and shit. got ppl thinking im fucking myself. thats how invisible you are. you swear its because you dont want ppl in yo biz but im not a dumb bitch , i wasnt born yesterday, nor the day before that. so please know that all the bullshit games you playing, ive played em or they've been played on me...so im already knowing. im not a desperate bitch by any means, i aint never pressed for dick, money, or attention. i just WANT yours. i WANT yo dick, i WANT your attention but i dont want your money. i aint never needed a nigga for that. *pauses to answer a call from "restricted"* yea thats you calling. blocked numbers for special reasons right? anyway like i said.. i dont NEED shit from you. all i want is happiness , happiness that the last nigga couldnt give me but you aint worried about that. you worried boutt that green shit, i aint a factor. i wish i woulda knew this shit before i fucked you. it wouldnt have happend. believe that. now im stuck here with fucked up feelings..and you, man you good. aint got a fucking worry. the only time you worried about me is when im not on time, on YOUR time..ugh im getting mad sitting here thinking about this shit bc ill never fucking understand your mind! or thought process. all i know is that im a good female. i do for mines, everything i possibly can and i never ask for shit in return except respect . i cant get that so now im unstabled. i think you should watch your words for the next few days.