damn is an understatement

Hakim was about 6'3 , yes he was tall , dark and bomb ! his luscious lips hid the prettiest teeth you'd see on a dark skin boy.Asia had never met a guy that could rock a hat&look bomb w.o it, his waves were so deep and thick .hakim was a top pick at Hunsaker High, Asia would never let it show tho . Asia , a pretty lil chocolate girl from the suburbs , had transferd to Hunsaker for a year , due to academic probation . Guys liked her , she was a new piece of ass , and thats how some treated her , others were probably sincere but she wouldnt give them the time of day. Hakim wanted her bad tho. He knew that if he got her aim , he'd be in the game . "aye D, whats hood mah nigga" D was asia's lil cousin. "nothing , whats up my nigga" Hakim stood there for a minute , tryna decide how to ask, he said "fucc it , D lemme get asia aim" D looked at him and laughed and said , "man niggas is on her , you like the 5th nigga to ask, why you wont get it from her?" hakim said ,"you gave it to them other niggas?"D said "nah , but ima give it to you because you mah nigga , dont hurt my cousin cuh" " i aint cuh , thats on nhc i aint , whats her aim." It was a tuesday night , asia was in her room doing homework and glancing at her fone every so ofter . she was doing a math problem , she glanced at her phone and noticed she had a blue light. Asia put her pen down , opend her kick and scrolled to the "aim" app. "NHCFINEST" is sending you an instant message , to accept click accept or to deny , click ignore .. asia said who in the hell , to herself . she accepted .

NHCFINEST: WHATS UP MA?

COCOASIA:WHO IS THIS ?=/

NHCFINEST: HAKIM .

COCOASIA: WHO?

NHCFINEST: HAKIM ! I GO TO HUNSAKER

. asia knew exactly who it was , she just had to act like she didnt know .

COCOASIA: OH HEY , WHATS UP?

NHCFINEST: OH NOW YOU KNOW ME HUH LOL .

COCOASIA: YES , SO HOW'D YOU GET MY AIM?

NHCFINEST: AM I NOT SUPPOSE TO HAVE IT?

COCOASIA: NAH I DIDNT SAY THAT , JUST CURIOUS, THATS ALL.

NHCFINEST: OH YO COUSIN GAVE IT TO ME ..

COCOASIA: OH OK, I SEE.

NHCFINEST: YEP SO WHATS up.

...They talked for hours that night..they had alotin common and from the looks of things , their friendship could do nothing but prosper. in the wks that followd , they became closer.&after their first kiss , hakim finally got the balls to ask her out , of course she said yea. Like gradually turned into love over the next few months . hakim never thought he'd love again after his first heartbreak so he didnt trust he and asia love enuff to let go of the side bitches .he had 2 or 3 on the side but they knew their place and it was in their best interest to stay in it.. but as usual, theres always one that think they deserve the ring more than wifey herself.Tati . neighborhood crip hoodrat. tati was pretty but she wasnt "wifey" material. she was hakims main piece of ass on the side .she and hakim thought only the hood knew about them but the hood talks as we all know. Asia played the dumb role, always hearing things but she never went to hakim with it , until one day , the day of their one year anniversary. "snooks(the nickname she gave hakim), have you ever cheated on me?" hakim almost choked off his food bc the question caught him off guard. "huh" said hakim. " i said have you ever cheated on me hakim, and dont lie" "why you asking me that shit" "just tell me the truth man" .asia sat there waiting to hear his lie . silence. "see nvm , dont answer , i know the real." Asia put her fork down and opend her purse , pulled out a pill bottle and a brochure......"im leaving", she said as she stood up , w. keys in hand. she was happy she drove , all she wanted to do was get away from hakim's lying ass. Hakim sat there , looking dumb. he picked up the pill bottle and read the name , he could barely pronounce the big word for the meds, so he picked up the brochure. "what is gonorreha". what the fuck , he thought to himself , he fucked up .he knew he fucked up.asia knew it too . he fucked a rat and brought something home to asia. DAMN !. Asia drove all the way home crying , she manage to make it thru the day w.o crying . she found out she had gonorreha earlier that day . she knew her body so when her pee pee was wburning she rushed to the clinic. she didnt tell hakim tho, asia knew she got it frm him bc she was stupid faithful and only fucked hakim ass.
Asia loved hakim but she thought he'd be smarter and at least use a damn condom with the hoes. asia madee it home , took a bath and journaled . her phone was blowing up , she didnt gaf , she silenced it and threw it away from her...after a while , she decided to check it . she had 10missed calls, 17 text and one aim. the last text read : "asia im so sorry , i know i fucked up hood ill neva do it again,you ma everything .please dont give up on me..." that text madee her cry more but she couldnt forgive him. Tati heard about the break up and she was too happy. She waited around the hood for hakim to text her , she knew he would need some pussy. So she was too happy when he textd and saidhe was on his way to her house. She rushed home to showe and get ready and to her luck(or so she thought) her mom was gone for the weekend...
Hakim was steaming as he drove to tati house although he hid it very well. he had shit to do.. && to make matters worth , that bitch tati texted him said,"hey babe , im sorry bout you and "a", she wasnt the one for you anyway , so come home to a real bitch". FUCK YOU! Hakim yelled over the loud music he was blasting ...he pulled up to her house , said a silent prayer and proceeded to the door. "ding dong" he rang the bell and tati mustve been waiting by the door bc it swung open real fast. there she stood , boyshort and a vneck, any other day , hakim woulda been on it but not tonight and she could see it in his eyes. he walked in and she followed close behind him, as she locked the door and turned around, hakim caught her by her throat....."bitch who else you fukin", yelled hakim."nobody" she said gasping for air."dont fuckin lie to me cuh " he loosened his grip."im telling the truth" tati said grabbing his hand trying to loosen the grip more.. hakim looked at her and let go of her neck , turned and walkd away..Tati thought she could talk shit "nigga wtf is yo problem , coming in here....." BAM .hakim stopped in his tracks and back handed tati. "bitch watch yo fuckin mouth , you fuckin burnt me", he slapped her again . by now she was on the floor in fetal position crying . hakim kicked her ,"you burnt me and i burnt asia, now she gone ," he kicked her again.. he knealed down , grabbed her by her hair , " take yo ass to the doc and neva tlk to me again" he kicked her and walkd out.tati laid there crying for hours , when she finally got up , she didnt recognize herself ...she couldnt believe it , she thought he loved her but it was obvious he loved asia more. that shit hurt her more than anything , she made up her mind , if she couldnt have hakim ,nobody would. ..Asia and hakim didnt talk for weeks , she ignored his phone calls, text , emails, and aims ..he needed to know he fucked up royally .. hakim didnt know what to do , he wasnt shit w.o asia...he needed to see her , his hood day was coming up , and to his surprise after several attempts , asia said she'd come... they werent the only ones gettin ready for hood day tho .. tati also got ready for the festivities, she had a lil something planned....
Asia couldnt believe she agreed to come ...she pulled up and she noticed hakim ..DAMNNNN...he had on a blue and orange fitted ny hat , earrings , and a nice lil fit.. when asia got out the car , he didnt wanna show his excitment but it wasnt well hid either lol...he hugged her soo tight ...she got weak from the hug alone, she missed him s much... they posted in the hood all evening , he only left her side to smoke , she didnt mind. she sat in her car and waited for him to come back . he was in a parked car a few cars behing her. she could see it out of her rearview. it was gettin dark and she textd him and said hurry up ..he replied and said "asia mama ily" she smiled at her phone , put it in her cup holder and leaned back in her seat. singing mariah and the dream(my love) asia thoughts were interrupted by gun shots. they sound like they came from behind her. that sick feeling overwhelmed her, she knew it was hakim. ..minutes went by before she had the courage to get out the car and when she did...
Her cousin ran to her .."noo noo noo noo" is all she could say as D tried to hug her.."is he gone , i want to see him", she askd D. D couldnt tell her the news ..the gun shots she heard went directly into hakims body, one to the head , two to the chest. ."WHYYYYY" asia yelled as she laid on to of hakims body , it took 4 ppl t pull her off. she couldnt believe it . her heart , her everything . he was gone. "it was the enemies cuh " thats all the niggas was saying.. asia was numb..his funeral came too soon for asia , she had completly shut down , she barely made it thru the service, it was soo unreal to her..she screamed , stomped and cried and he still wasnt coming back. the whole hood was there, the rats too . lil did anyone know , the person behind the shit was in the church among the friends and family of hakim. second pew , to the right , tati sat. eyes red, tears falling , with a wicked smile on her face. when it was time to view the body , everyone walkd past and touched hakim, some broke down. asia watched as all of them paid their respects, paying close attention to tati as she walked passed her with that same grin on her face. once at the casket , tati whisperes ,"if i cant have you, nobody will, but you wont ever hurt me again bitch" ..... DAMNNNN! (THE END)
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i couldnt believe it or accept it , but i seen it with my very own eyes , you kissing her . the way you looked in her eyes and rubbed her face , it makes me nausea to even do an instant replay. The day started off regular, ya know , the goodmornings and ily text msgs. i didnt bother to ask what you were getting into , mainly because i knew it wouldnt be the truth. so i made my own plans, my plan was to enjoy my day without the bs and you. whoever woulda thought we would end up in the same place , coming face to face ??.. Me and my crew hit almost every mall , ended up at lakewood .. walked in through the new forever 21 , it wasnt my scene but we walked thru anyway..the girls picked out a shirt or two , we paid , and left. i had a feeling , the kind that made my stomach knot up. i knew something bad was going to happen. something told me to leave that mall but we didnt. we walked pass ms.fileds and bath and body works. i looked ahead, we turned right and walkd towards footlocker,DAMNNN....damn ! my head dropped , my hands started sweating, knees almost buckled. i was stuck , shocked and feeling stupid. it was you . you with her. you told me she was your bestfriend , i never cared enough to question you . until now , there yall was , walking hand in hand outta footlocker. coming my way , i wanted to run and hid but my legs wouldnt move . i stood ther and waited for you to see me ..our eyes locked . you looked like you seen a ghost . obviously knowing i would soon be a ghost in your eyes. me and my girls stood there , you and her stopped in yall tracks. i walkd up , you took a few steps to the side , i came closer , face to face . "babe its not what you think" . i hushed you, grabbed your hand and made you touch my round belling . i tried not to cry but i couldnt help it .."say goodbye to your son"... lifes a bitch huh?

there we sat..

So there we sat , staring at each other , not really knowing exactly what to say. everytime i think to open my mouth, you obviously was thinking the same. we stopped and started at the same time. there was so much to be said, i personally had alot to get off my chest . there we sat . the like we had for one another grew overtime, stronger and stronger. i gave you my all and so did you , well you thought i gave you my all , but i was using lies to cover the truth. i told you ALMOST everything you ever asked me , except one thing . this one thing has been eating at me since the beginning. there we sat , and i could barely breathe. ive been wanting to tell you , i tried everyday , but my biggest fear was that you'd walk away....
"how much do you care for me?", thats the first thing i asked and i wish i hadnt. i wish i couldve taken it back. "what do you mean?" " i mean do you care about me enough to look past my past, i mean the things i did before there was a you and me?" .you sat there , studying my fave. you was looking at me as if you could see through my brain and read my thoughts. there we sat . seconds late , tears started rolling down my cheeks , you moved closer and wiped my face , "just tell me" . "please forgive me", i said "please dont leave me". "kii just tell me" ..time stopped , my heart broke , and with my next words , i knew you would be gone. "i had sex w. your bestfriend , not recently, but after we graduated". i looked up at you , you looked so hurt. so betrayed. you got up and walkd away . THERE I SAT.

behind every smile , theres a storyy ..

[deep breath]
i dont know where to stop but i do know that alot has to be said . its only right , and maybe ill be able to sleep better at night =/

the name is kiera thomas , i am a 20 year old female , orginally from compton , ca. noooo this isnt an autobiography . but these are the pieces of kii .

im sorry if im rambling , i mean i do have alot to say but im not very sure where i should start ..[deep breath] .. lets see. ok ive been dating since i was in 7th grade . in 7th grade , aint nothing serious so idk why i even count it . but thats when it start .

when i got to high school , thats when things got serious . i attended artesia high school and i tlkd to ALOT of guys there . some were friends , some were enemies , and ask me if i cared .. nahh i really didnt . i never really cared about what people thought about me and the choices ive made in my life , until recently . and thats kinda weird because i shoulda cared back then , rather than now .
some people call me a hoe , like they seriously look at me and see slut and thats not even the case . my mother raised me to be a respectable young lady , and in my eyes i do respect myself . to others tho , nahh . im just a pure hoe . yes , ive had sexx before and yes some of the guys knew each other but it was never intentionally . i never said ooooh ok , ima do him cuz thats his friend . no ! i would like to lie and say that most times it was on accident but yea i'd be lying . i feel badd because i feel like i fucked up my life and relationships with ppl because of the rep ive made for myself .

i smile to hide all of the shit that ive done , i talk shit so ppl'l think that i dont care but to be real honest it gets to me .

promiscuous

definition : Having casual sexual relations frequently with different partners; indiscriminate in the choice of sexual partners.

see people called me promiscuous once upon a time because i was living my life the way i wanted to . i played by the same rules as the boys , fuck these niggas , ima get mines when i want it and anytime after that . i honestly didnt care , straight fkn without emotions , just like a nigga . who were they to judge me? exactly . nobody . i dont think a nigga should ever call a female a hoe because she enjoys sex , yes she should just do it with one person but shit happens . once again , who are you to judge anyone ?

why do people judge ppl based on their past ? theres nothing you can do about the past so why worry about it . worry about something else , like yalll future .. i mean its terrible how many niggas lose good females because of something they heard about her past . smh . i lost plenty of guys because of the shit i use to do but now i dont care because its my past . im not proud of it but im not gonna hide shit .

what you think ?

the REAL TRUTH .

ok so some may say ima hoe , ima slut , ima freak , got a different nigga every day of the week .. but im not . im just me . idgaf about what nobody has to say . my past is my past but ima bring a lil bit of it to the present ...

cinco de mayo 08


heres a lil storyy i got to tell , only because guys like to run their mouths like they the shit when in reality they aint shit .. yes i fucked you .. no let me take that back , you fucked me . you thought you fucked me good but you really didnt. we sat on your couch , i seriously didnt think nothing would happen but it did and it happend so fast .. lmao .. literally like 6 mins at the most . your dick was the size of my pinky finger and lets be real , i have small hands . smh . so you hit it , well you touched it because i didnt feel you inside me . i mean you was knocking on the door the whole time but you never came in , sad story right . so if thats the case , why in the hell would you go around and tell ppl that you fucked me. i mean its true , im pretty and alot of boys want me but you didnt do too well at the task at hand. i didnt nut , you did but you didnt even have a stroke .. i mean you was just bunny rabbittin me .. smh , yet you still wanna bragg . i didnt tell nobody so i know you the one that told , its wasnt shit to bragg about to me ,personally .. i thought we were better than that , honestly , but we aint . you played me like a mexican .. it doesnt matter to me now tho . i mean .. i can always say i fucked a millionaire with a dick worth a penny ...

good luck in the nba sir, i hope everything goes OK for you..

love always ,
Kiera Tanae