..thoughts

The fact that a picture or words from someone we don't even know can alter our perception of what's going on in our lives. I wish I could just blame social media but it's not just it, it's me too. I am a part of the problem as well. I'm not sure why I crave attention but I don't seek it as much as other females do. I don't like to praised but I put my accomplishments on every network. I don't want to be talked about but I put so much of my business on networks. I don't want to be judge by my appearance but I post multiple pictures on Instagram. You see where I'm going with this? 

Today I deleted my Instagram and twitter, I no longer feel the need to know everyone's business or have them in mine. I have been my happiest these past few weeks and it was altered this morning bc of a picture from 8 weeks ago. That should never happen. I'm making the change. Nomore backsliding  

Swangin

there comes a time when she doesn't wanna run around the city anymore,

she ain't reppin those two c's for you anymore.

she use to let you come and go as you please,

Now you ain't even got the keys that match the lock.

all the bitches that use to pop up,

she don't even trip nomore,

she greets em on her way out. 

you ran over her heart with your big red four wheeler, it was once her favorite , kinda like you,

now she sees past you with no regard, how surprised were you when you seen her out there mowing her own yard? 

she exposed the biggest snake of them all.

at least we tried for a homerun everytime ✌️

A visit upstate.

Malcolm better be glad I'm really missing him right now. In between my job and my side hustle, I be too exhausted to make these trips upstate to see him. You see, Malcolm is upstate serving 6 years for some bullshit I need not speak of, yes it's that fucking stupid and embarrassing.

I got up early as hell and I'm mad about it. Pissed actually, got dressed and made my way to on the highway. The drive itself tires me out to the point that I don't care for the visit, that's bad huh? Oh well.

Malcolm really wanted to see dm this particular weekend, I had been writing him more lately so I guess I made him feel good. When we were together, Malcolm and I had a very different relationship. You see, Malcolm is a very sexual man so of course his mate would have to be just as sexual, if not freakier. I was just right for Malcolm. We both enjoy the art of orgasms, the release it act as. Our relationship seemed mostly sexual to the blind eye but we knew we had a special kind of connection. Malcolm and I were very adventurous with each other. We had gone to several swinger parties, orgies, etc. we had threesomes often too. I felt like it brought us closer.

Lately I've been writing Malcolm erotic stories and dreams I've been having. He told me it was imperative that I came to visit him this weekend. After arriving at the prison and going thru security, I sat in the waiting area with everyone else when this correctional officer approached me and asked me my name. My head had been down as he walked up on me so as my eyes went from his boots to his waist where his holster hung and up his big chest that looked like it was the sexist thing under his uniform shirt. His skin was the color of chocolate, dark chocolate. He stood about 6'7 but he wasn't skinny, he was thick. His facial hair was trimmed and jet black with sandy brown stands here and there. He had the deepest set of eyes, light Brown in color and his eye lashes were so dark and slighty curled. This had to be a GOD standing before me. "excuse me?" I asked as I finally picked my jaw up off the floor. I moved around in my seat bc my jeans were pressing against my clit and I didn't want to have a wet spot.

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"Are you Charlie Gunuz ma'am?" He sounded like the Allstate guy. My pussy throbbed at this point. I tried to stop shaking my leg, "yes that's me" I finally replied. "Ok come with me" he demanded and turned to walk away before I could object. We walked past all the people in the waiting aRea and into a hallway. It was a dark hallway, not the one that leads you to the inmates. "Where are we going?" My voice trembled as I asked. He didn't say anything right away, he just kept on walking. He stopped abruptly and handed me an envelope. "What's this?" I asked as I looked down at the envelop that was addressed to me. "Just open it and read it" he demanded again and took a few steps and leaned against the wall.

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chuck,

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I'm happy you kept your word and came to see a nigga, be nice to dude you with right now, you might need him late ;) now follow the rest of his instructions and go along with everything cuh says.

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Mal

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I looked up from the piece of paper I was holding and he was looking at me but not the way he had been looking at me before, it was a seductive glance. "Follow me" again he demanded. I sucked my teeth and followed his instructions. When we came to a stop, we stood in front of a door with the last name "Brownson" I snickered when I read the name. He turned to and gave me a hard stare. I lowered my eyes like a scolded little girl. He opened the door where I came face to face with Malcolm.

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Standing at 6'6 exactly, looking way thicker than he was the last time I saw him. Prison haircuts are starting to look better than the ones on the outside, baby was dippin, my pussy got went at that very moment. His pants hung on him the way I liked them to, he wasn't sagging hard but it was just right . By the time my eyes made it up to his face, he was giving me a all teeth million dollar Malcolm Travis smile. I wanted to run and jump into his arms but I wasn't sure if I could. I looked over to Brownson for an okay and he nodded his head.

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when I wrapped my arms around Malcolm's neck, I know he felt my heart beating thru my chest. He wore DG light blu , I knew the scent right away. He always wore it when we went out. Malcolm had to bend down for me to get my arms around his neck, he lifted me off the floor. I wrapped my legs around him and inhaled him for the first time in too long!

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"I missed you" he whispered into my neck, it sent chills throughout my entire body. I just hugged him tighter. His hands rubbed the length of my body and they stopped on my waist. His touch brought back so many memories, sexual memories. I stood on my tiptoes and his lips finally met mine. I wasted no time putting my tongue in his mouth but as soon as I felt his tongue my pussy was throbbing and likely drippin. His tongue taste sweet, like he had eaten a piece of candy right before I got there. His hands explored my body as he kissed me. I let out a sigh when I felt his hands reaching up my shirt and up under my bra, stopping at my nipples. I loss my breath. His touch was electrifying. Brownson cleared his throat as he stood at the door of his office. I forgot he was even in the room, I was embarrassed.

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"My bad man, Charlie, this is LT.Brownson. He's the reason I got this visit with you." Malcolm explained. I extended my hand ,"hi I'm Charlie, nice to meet you abc thank you for giving us this visit" I gave a shaky smile. Brownson looked at my hand and smirked. He walked up to me, stopping only inches away from the "personal spade" invisible lines. He took my hand and brought it to his mouth and kissed it. "Nice to meet you and you're more than welcome" the tone of his voice and look in his eye made me feel some type of way so I stood closer to Malcolm .

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"Chuck remember how you said you couldn't wait to have another threesome with me?" Malcolm kind of caught me off guard with that question, I felt my cheeks get got. I looked at Malcolm then to Brownson and back to Malcolm. How did he pull this off?

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I finally answered ,"yes I remember" I said in my big girl voice. Malcolm moved closer to me and stood behind me, now we're facing Brownson. He moves up right behind me and the warmth of his body could now be felt on me. I got the chills instantly, his warm breath on my neck drove me silently insane. "You're gonna let him fuck you?" The question sent even more chills thru me. He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in closer so that I could feel his dick poking thru his khakis. I loss my breath, I unconsciously put my ass into his pelvic area, I guess my body knew what to do under his touch. One of his hands found a belt loop and when he grabbed my upper thigh my jeans tightened up near the crouch. The way the material rubbed on my clit, my knees became weak and Malcolm found himself holding me up.

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"You good ma?" He looked at me a little scared.

I found my breath "yes I'm okay" I turned around to face him and before i say what I was gonna say, his tongue was in my mouth. Our tongues danced and our hands did as well. I couldn't wait to undo his pants, I stuck my hand down the front of his briefs and found what I been missing. He was so warm and thick, just how I remembered it. I ran my hand up and down on it while squeezing a little bit. Precum started dripping and his body tensed up. I had been dreaming of this exact moment lately, I mentioned it in my letters to Malcolm.

I wasted no time dropping down on my knees in front of Mal. I pulled his pants down to about his knees, pulled his briefs down just as far. I admired his dick for a minute, I just looked at it and admired its perfectness. how could one muscle hit every spot known to my body and find new ones on a daily basis, we'll not so daily these days but you get what I mean.

I used one hand to hold his dick and my free hand to rub on his balls. I lifted his dick and let my tongue flick on his balls. He leaned against the desk in the LT. Office. I opened my mouth and took them in my mouth. I slowly stroked his dick as I let my mouth massage his sack. I stopped giving his balls my attention and opened my mouth for the main course. I licked the tip of his dick, just seeing the veins pop out made my pussy throb. I opened my mouth and made my way up his shaft. In and out, I twist my wrist every other stroke to give him a ill extra delight. My mouth is wet as helll and the spit drips down my hand. I feel Malcolm hand on the back of my head, I love when he starts fucking my face. I open my mouth and let him control how far he goes in my mouth. I stick out my tongue so he can go as far down as he wants. I grab on to his upper thighs to slow him down, I'm gagging too much for my likings. Brownson clears his throat again, I really forgot he was still there. I turned to see what he was doing , Mal still had hold of my head. He was seated in a big red oak chair. Dick in hand, looking at me super seductively. From where I was, with my horrible eyesight , I could see ole boy was packing. I looked up at Malcolm who was basically giving me a non verbal "ok". Brownson moved from the chair to the matching chaise and sat at the far corner of it. I could tell by the way he looked at me and the chaise that he wanted me on all fours, on the chaise. As I made my way to Brownson, Malcolm whispered "do yo shit ma" in my ear and slapped my ass. That man, that damn man. Malcolm did something to me, i don't know what to call it but it's something strong.

I got to the chaise and stood there for a minute, I craWled on the couch so that I was on all 4s. I took brownsons dick from him and opened my mouth, I had to open my mouth wide because of its girth. I waxed his dick with spit the first taste, I went up and down on it while spit dripped from my fist. He put his hand on the back of my head as I went up and down on it . I twisted my wrist as I fucked him with my mouth. He let out a hard grunt. I opened my mouth and took as much of the snake as I could, I hummed when I could feel him in my throat, he moaned again. Just then I felt a hand on my pussy. Malcolm had come up behind me and he was playing with my pussy. I was so wet that his fingers kept slipping out of me. He licked my juices off his fingers and stuck them back in me. I sucked brownsons dick as I threw my ass back on his hand. I sucked harder on the tip of brownsons dick, he tried to take it out my mouth but I grabbed his balls and he squirmed on the chaise. He grabbed on cushions and he tensed up. I tensed up too, Malcolm was putting his dick in me from the back. Its been a minute so Malcolm had to take his time getting in me. I arched my back while holding brownsons dick in my hand. "Toot this shit" Malcolm called out and I did as I was told. With a long deep stroke, Malcolm found his dick covered with my juices. He Stroked again, at this point I couldn't breathe at all. I arched my back as much as I could.i had to feel him in every part of me. He held onto my hips and slowly stroked my pussy as I tried to suck brownsons dick. Malcolm got his rhythm going and I did too. My head was going up and down on brownsons lap, using my freehand to play with his balls, I could tell he was close to nutting and so was Malcolm. Malcolm stopped fuckin me and pulled me up. "Now let him hit it, I told him it was fire, I don't think he believes it" 'Malcolm said with a smirk on his face. Malcolm sat down on the chaise and I was on the floor in front of him with my ass in the air waiting on Brownson to come get some. I don't know but I was looking forward to him fucking me. He came up behind me and stuck 2 fingers in me swiftly. He caught me off guard. I took Malcolm's dick in my mouth and started showing him how much I missed him, he kept eye contact with me as I showed him my skills. I lost my breath when the lieutenant shoved his entire dick in me. He hit me with hard strokes, I couldn't even concentrate on the dick in my hand, the one in my pussy felt too good. I came instantly and I put Malcolm's dick back in my mouth, I sucked and spit, stroked and sucked. When he went to grab my head, I stuck out my tongue so he could go deep in my throat. With my free hand, I reached between my legs and played with my clit as Brownson punished me from the back. His bAlls slapped against my ass and Malcolm's dick raped my mouth. I grabbed Malcolm's dick and sucked on the tip, I knew this drove him crazy, his body tensed up and I braced myself for what I been waiting for. I stroked him few more times and he grabbed my head to pull me closer and at that exact moment, Brownson pulled his dick outta me and abruptly stood in front of me . I went back and forth on their dicks, I guess both of them wanted my mouth, Malcolm was closer to nutting so I Stroked him and sucked on the tip til I tasted something salty then I felt the explosion in my mouth as he grabbed my head and forced his dick down my throat, I relaxed my throat and took it all in . He had a few aftershocks but I had unfinished business with Brownson, I sucked Nd stroked his dick, letting my tongue linger on the tip for few seconds , "open your mouth" he said in a husky voice. I opened my mouth and he fucked every inch of it until I felt the warm nut touch my tonsils. "Swallow it, all of it" he demanded. I drank his nut and winked as he collapsed on the chaise. I stood up, walked over to Malcolm and kissed him on the cheek and told him "see you when you come home" I grabbed my jeans , put them on, looked around and found my shirt and did the same. I found my shoes and headed for the door, they both looked at me in amazement and confusion. "I'll see myself out, thank you guys" i walked out of that prison with a smile of success on my face. I patted my pocket to make sure the small recorder was there, I knew for sure the whole thing was recorder. My baby would be home sooner than anyone thought. ;)

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