caved.

I cried, I cried so hard. I shook, I shook uncontrollably. when I talked, I stuttered or words didn't come out at all. My heart was constantly breaking in so many pieces, the stories kept coming & I didn't know what to believe. I wanted to believe you, the man I gave my heart to but her words were hitting like a ton of bricks and you wasn't there to protect me. I broke down night after night, yea I seemed strong during the day but it was eating at my soul.

You asked me for sex but I knew you just wanted to see me, I could barely look at you bc I knew id cry. Couldn't talk to you bc I knew my voice would crack. I was hurting , sooo bad on the inside.

I pulled down my pants and took them off, you stood up and took off your shirt. My heart was pounding. You opened my legs, my world shook. when you entered me, I lost it. I couldn't hold back anymore tears. Your first stroke, I remembered our first kiss. Your second stroke, I remembered our last kiss. Your arms above my head, I laid my head where I always would, in the crease of your elbow. more tears. I felt your breath in my ear, I remembered the first time I heard your voice in person.

You stopped. I guess you thought my tears were bc I didn't want to do it but you were wrong. Those tears were tears of fear, would this be your last time touching me? Was the man I gave my entire being to really going to be just a memory? Was I not good enough to know the truth about you?

Questions brought tears and fears to my core, I've never felt anything like that before.

above & beyond.

going above and beyond,

Doing shit that's beneath me,

Seems like I'm in OT tryna keep you,

You ain't even thinking about me.

I give in to your every desire

Do you ever wonder how I feel?

My love for you is turning into fire,

Burning pain bc of all the things you don't do but expect me to do.

You ain't never had a girl like me,

Yo next bitch won't even amount to me.

I give you all of me,

Even let you share me,

You wasn't thinking about how I felt about it

As long as you got what you wanted outta it.

Going above and beyond for a nigga,
Doing shit that's beneath me.