there we sat..

So there we sat , staring at each other , not really knowing exactly what to say. everytime i think to open my mouth, you obviously was thinking the same. we stopped and started at the same time. there was so much to be said, i personally had alot to get off my chest . there we sat . the like we had for one another grew overtime, stronger and stronger. i gave you my all and so did you , well you thought i gave you my all , but i was using lies to cover the truth. i told you ALMOST everything you ever asked me , except one thing . this one thing has been eating at me since the beginning. there we sat , and i could barely breathe. ive been wanting to tell you , i tried everyday , but my biggest fear was that you'd walk away....
"how much do you care for me?", thats the first thing i asked and i wish i hadnt. i wish i couldve taken it back. "what do you mean?" " i mean do you care about me enough to look past my past, i mean the things i did before there was a you and me?" .you sat there , studying my fave. you was looking at me as if you could see through my brain and read my thoughts. there we sat . seconds late , tears started rolling down my cheeks , you moved closer and wiped my face , "just tell me" . "please forgive me", i said "please dont leave me". "kii just tell me" ..time stopped , my heart broke , and with my next words , i knew you would be gone. "i had sex w. your bestfriend , not recently, but after we graduated". i looked up at you , you looked so hurt. so betrayed. you got up and walkd away . THERE I SAT.