The spirit of life

I asked a few friends what I should write about today and they gave me a lot of good topics but my bestfriend gave me one that would open my mind and hopefully your eyes . She said ,"the spirit of life" and I said I don't even know what that means and she elaborated and said ,"life and what it means to you" I've written about my life plenty of times but I've never went in on what it means to me , which is actually very strange but there's a first time for everything so here it goes

My life started in the early morning hours of February 17,1989. When I opened my eyes and took my first breaths, that was my first stage of life. I survived my first night, my first year , now I'm 23 and I'm still living. I take a lot of things for granted. For instance , I took my grandmother for granted, I never thought BA would leave us, to be honest, I use to tell my cousins that she would never die . I know it isn't right to take a life for granted because it can be taken at any time. When god called my granny home, my world stopped for the longest minute ever, I had to come to terms with the fact that she was gone and never coming back and I believe that part hurt me the most. My grandmother lived her life for her family and making sure we never went without , superhuman is what she was. The impact she had on the lives of others was remarkable.

I make a lot of bad choices in my everyday life, at one point of time, I was living to please everybody except kiera. It wasn't until recently that I realized that wasnt the way to go. When you're laying in a hospital bed, with no one by your side but niggas on your phone steady tryna get a nutt off, you realize that you aren't living right. Since the age of 19, I've been in and out of emergency rooms and I cant remember one time where one of the guys I was catering to , was there catering to me. Things like that makes you look at your life and think like damn, is this how life is suppose to be ? And the answer is NO! I was careless with my health for so many years and it wasn't until recently when I had to take a step back and tell myself that MY LIFE is more than hospitals and IVs . So when asked what life is to me , I'll answer and say, life is my choices, decisions,my goals and everything else important and beneficial to KIERA. My life means so much to me, I don't have kids but I have young ppl looking up to me so I can't fail at it. There's been times where I contemplated suicide and the thought of the pain I would cause my family and people who invested so much in me, stopped me because deep down I know I'm worth alot more than what I settle for. I'm a big dreamer and life is my reality .

And in reality, I'll succeed and continue to cherish my life